Monday, January 23, 2006

And That's All I Need

Lately I've been thinking so strangely about the clouds. And how they seem to slowly fade away, yeah. Maybe someday we will find a way to disappear, just me and you on silver lining dreams.

It's gonna rain. I think on Tet too. I like rain, but I hate wind + rain. I hate school + rain cuz the school always gets huge puddles and super muddy. I love you + me + rain. I don't love Tet parades + tons of people + rain. I love
you. =]

I won't. Oh, I won't.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Yay for the Unknowns!

The Like - Too Late
(I love this song. I imagine girls rocking out to it in ballet. It'd be awesome if this kinda song was the song to dance to for the "all girls dance" in FANTASTICS. And you know there's always one that's at least mainly meant for girls. Some might argue it's too slow, but I think slower songs aren't that much more difficult to make a routine to.)


So, it's semester break, which means a 4 day weekend. Therefore, I don't have school tomorrow, which I didn't know until going out with some people today. Otherwise, I'd be sleeping, dreading tomorrow's return to hell, but no! I found out I don't have school! Yay. It's so much better that I didn't know and found out. Now, I'm so happy, but this won't last a day.

What's been going on lately?... Finals. That's all that needs to be said. ='[ The awful breakdown of my grades for this semester without the +/- cuz I don't know them (ughhhhhhhhhhhh. Mak
es me want to stab my eyes out.):
APUSH - B
APCalc AB - D..
APEng Lit - B
Physics - A (not sure cuz of the final..)
Japanese - B.........................
Photo - A.
I'm mostly disappointed with my Japanese grade, surprisingly. It should be an A, but I guess I realized too late how much I actually didn't know. I herefore vow to do at least 3 assignments of hw a week, and to .. DUN DUN DUN! STUDY! Yes. I no longer rock your world Japanese-wise. =[

Other things.. hm. Not much has happened, I guess. I think I've been getting pretty emotional lately. I don't know. Maybe the stress from finals got to me.. I don't know. I just feel pretty worthless sometimes. I don't hate living, but my life would be put to better use if I gave it to someone else. Whenever I think this, it makes me want to try more and more not to be so fucking pathetic. To anyone who reads this, please motivate me. I don't really like talking about this stuff, but just knowing that someone supports me in my attempt to be a better person, it'll make me try harder and it'll remind me of what I'm trying to do. I don't know. Say, "Fuck yeah, Michelle!" or something. A heart in there wouldn't hurt. =T

Today was the first time this weekend we went out. Crazy, huh? We went somewhere Friday, but it doesn't really count. Today, we went to the lake after stopping by Lunardi's, then to Q-Cup (dang fobs.. I thought the cigarette smoke would smother me to death.), then made our way around to pick up Lisa, and lastly to Victoria's to watch Love Me If You Dare. I liked it for the most part, but as it neared the end, it got too fucking insane. Crazy bitches. I liked the first half though.

Hrm.. anything else that's happened since I last blogged? Oh. I still don't have my iPod. I called Apple today, and they said that I have to wait cuz they're going to put a tracer on it now and e-mail me every three days, and if nothing happens, I'll get a replacement. Grrr. It's taking forFUCKINGever. =/ I spend forever on the computer just listening to music. x_x

Other small updates: oppa's coming back to the states (in fact, he's on his way already); I somehow ridiculously owe someone something that shouldn't be paid till a long while from now; I'm pretty set on trying out for Japan Bowl; I have been thinking of things I shouldn't be thinking...
and now, I'm just rambling on to try and get things to put in here. Blah!

Comment. Leave some love. I heart the love. (That's a heart..)

Sunday, January 01, 2006

The Only Point

Architecture In Helsinki - The Owls Go
(Good times with this one)

I should be out with friends, but I chose to stay home. Why? My dad's sick, and of course John's gonna have to go out himself, so I did't want to leave my mom home alone, but I couldn't stand just sitting and watching TV any longer, so I thought I'd work on homework, like I'd planned. It is now the new year, but what's the point? You don't get a day off on the eve or on the day of. It's just another reason for people to get drunk and touch each other, in my opinion. I guess everyone just likes to partay, so it's just another reason to have something to celebrate, but what are we celebrating exactly? A new year with new possibilities? The fading of bad memories? I really have no idea what's so important. I guess it just helps with closure and transition, but what's mostly odd for me is that I have to go to church on New Year's Eve. This is not a religious holiday at all. I'm not griping about going to church today cuz I normally have church on Saturdays, but otherwise, I'd have to go to church twice. It is only an hour since it isn't important, but why have church for New Year's anyway? It is the least bit religious. Man, it is the opposite of holy, if anything. I just don't understand. I guess it's to thank God for "a great year," and to pray for "another great year of serving Him." I have no clue. Anyway, I thought, what's the point in it for me? I always thought it was useless, but I thought about it more, and good things happened. Memories are the only reason I would partake in celebrating. On New Year's Eve, I can look back on everything I loved most, which I will do now, but on New Year's. =]

BESTS, imo:
Day Out: There's so many, like karaoke, when we all just sang in Cindy's car though we initially planned to hang out outside at the lake, our car chase; but one that still stands out has to be the interesting day spent with Tracy, Chris, and Victoria. I think we first were at Chris' with Dan, Lisa, and Cindy, but they had to leave. Then we went to what I think is a shiekh(sp?) temple in the hills. We hung out around sunset, then went to get ice cream at.. I think it's a Marble Slab. The workers thought we were loitering, I think. We got a banana split or some sundae and shared. It was good stuff. Then we went to the basketball courts at Creek. It was a windy, windy day. We sat on the bleachers and talked about interesting stuff: religion, point in life, etc. That's when I saw the world as flat and understood why people would think it's flat. I don't know how to explain it, but how the clouds moved in the sky was crazy. Tracy thought it was mind-blowing too. :D It was just interesting.. the stuff we talked about, how we spent such an awesome day. I like just talking cuz it shows you just how great your friends are.

Movies: This is going to be hard, but I'm going to try and think of all the good movies I've seen this year and list them. Crash, Saving Face, Jarhead, Thumbsucker, Harry Potter: The Goblet of Fire, Brokeback Mountain, March of the Penguins, The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants (reminded by Tracy),... and I'm clueless.

Dramas: Korean - My Name Is Kim Sam Soon. That's an ultimate love. Japanese - Stand Up! I love Japanese dramas cuz they're different than Korean ones and how everyone somehow has cancer. Another reason why I love My Name Is Kim Sam Soon. Sure, someone had cancer, but they already recovered from it by the time they're in the drama. :D

Album: There were a lot of upsets for me this year: Coldplay, Switchfoot, Weezer, agh. Not all CDs this year were horrible though, including Stars' Set Yourself On Fire. I'm not sure if I like Heart more, but that's not 2005 anyway. I never heard all of Hot Hot Heat's Elevator, but the parts I've heard are good, but since I never heard it all (hint hint), I can't say it's the best.

Day In: My favorite day at home would have to be.. I don't know, but the most recent one I can remember that was okay was when Duy came to visit, since that's rare. *shrug*

Book: I didn't really read any this year, but I think it would have to be East of Eden. Sure, it was assigned, but I really liked that book. I also liked The Rice Room.

Trends: Just throwing this one in, but not even I'm sure which I like. I guess, fitting clothes for guys. Not skin-tight, but fitting. Man.. whenever I see guys with tight-ass clothes on, and it's not just emo guys and their ugly pants, I cringe. For example, take that one Asian guy... you all know who I'm talking about. The one that used to make me laugh everytime I saw him. You know the one. Yeah... he's horrible.

TV Show: Hmm, I don't watch TV anymore. *think think*... Uhh.. I don't know. I think the only thing I really watch is cartoons cuz that's what's on when I first get home. I watch for a bit, then do homework. Then the best cartoon has to be.. man, Foster's, Fairly Oddparents, or Jimmy Neutron? I'd have to go with.... Foster's?

Radio Station: The one in my head. Radio can burn.

Music Video: I don't really know of any, but one I really recall is Stars' Ageless Beauty. It had the galaxy and stuff. Pretty~. Now that I think about it, Switchfoot's Stars wasn't too bad either, but whatever, I don't want to think about it.

School Moment: There's probably many more better ones than this, but after thinking about Stars, I remembered a classic moment in Japanese class. Tracy, Cindy, and I were anticipating Stars' and Death Cab for Cutie's concert. We kept singing Stars - Your Ex-Lover Is Dead, but we sang it so much that it started to wear off and we forgot how it started. Cindy hid herself in her backpack and listened to her iPod just to hear it. She got it, and we three whisper-sang it. Man, we love singing.

Period of Time: There's always a period of time where everything's just great. The best was when we went out almost everyday, school day or not, and just hung out.

Website (remembered from talking to Kenneth): This one. :D J/k. I don't know.. video.google.com? *shrug*

I'm pretty much out of bests, but let's do..
WORSTS, imo:
Day Out: This is not even questionable! WHEN WE FOUND OUT TC TEA WAS CLOSED DOWN AND REPLACED BY FUCKING WU'S! As if that wasn't disappointing enough, that pho place! AGH! I love pho, don't get me wrong, but it wasn't enjoyable since I didn't want pho, but rather TC Tea. T___T

Movies: I'm not really sure if there's any worst movie, but the most recent one is The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe. Sure, I love the books (at least the ones I read), but the movie. Yes, I know it's a children-aimed movie, but the acting. Good god, the acting. Lucy, that constantly crying little girl, seriously thinks she can help in a war with leopards, lions, fauns (half men, half horse or something), polar bears, and people who actually know how to fight? Sure, if she had heat sensing missiles or something, then that's understandable, but with that puny blade? And there was a MATRIX SCENE! ARE YOU FUCKING ME?! It wasn't a horrible movie, but I just have my gripes about it. The plot was a little weak. The book was good, but the movie was a little boring at first (it's just the intro..), then it drags, and the battle scene didn't help at all like I'd hoped, and I just wished it would end. Note, as it says above, imo: in my opinion.

Dramas: Korean - Loveholic. I've seen maybe one episode, so maybe it gets better, but their teacher can fight. I also scanned a later episode, and she fights side by side with her lover. That just doesn't appeal to me. Japanese - none. I haven't seen a bad one yet, but I haven't really seen any.

Album (Upsets): Ahhh yes. This will go by how much it upsetted me because I know there are much more albums I'd hate more, like Good Charlotte, Simple Plan, etc. (I don't even know if they released new albums, but if they did, that's automatic hate.) So the big upset of the year, for me, was probably Switchfoot. It got way too blatantly Christian and could no longer appeal to the masses; just the Christians. Their single, Stars, was pretty good, but that's the only song I liked. The rest... gah. I regret downloading it even. Coldplay's X&Y is tolerable when you're not thinking about it, and I like Fix You, but it was really upsetting. Weezer's Make Believe really upset me cuz it was really nothing to compare to the Green or Blue Albums. I do like more than one song though, so it wasn't so bad. There's probably others that I can't think of... oh! Never mind! It's not Switchfoot anymore.. The All-American Rejects! That was INCREDIBLY disappointing. I didn't really expect much from Switchfoot, but it's worse than those others I listed cuz I only liked one song, but The All-American Rejects. I expected GREAT things from them. I LOVED their old album to bits! When their new album, which I don't even know the title of, released, it was a huge bummer. Their style totally changed and not even one song was good. AGH! T_____T DAMMIT!

Day In: Other than the days where I was miserably sick or had to stay home and do homework, it would have to be... when I chose to give up. That was pretty... bad.

Book: I didn't really come across any bad books this year, but the worst, though I didn't even get past the first chapter, was Moby Dick. This was also assigned. Sure, it's an American Classic or whatever because of its symbolism, but man, what an annoying book. The characters were annoying or just strange. The chapters were funky and too random. Gah. It's like To Kill A Mockingbird, which I like, but that first half has nothing to do with anything. The first half was still good reading, but it just makes you think, Get to the fucking point!

Trends: Since I already mentioned what I don't like for guys, I'll pick on female fashion. I think the worst would have to be those damn tunics. Is it a shirt, is it a dress? Make up your fucking mind.

TV Show: First, I'll go by upsets. Sadly, the first thing that comes to mind is Gilmore Girls. I love Gilmore Girls, but this new 6th season is the pits. Get it away. =[ Okay, for the actual worst show, again, imo. It has to be Laguna Beach, man. Sure, it's partially because I don't exactly love white people, but man, these are exactly the type I hate. They can't stand not shopping 24/7, they make drama and get flustered when it's their own fault,.. I don't even know what this show is, but it is fucking horrible. I watched part of one episode, and I had to change the channel. Quick.

Radio Station: Wild 94.9. 'Nuff said.

Music Video: (I think this is 2005..) Any Yellowcard video. They're all bad. Even the one they chose for their DVD (Breathing-Live Version) was a bad choice. (GO WONGFU!) The worst is Only One, and I LOVE that song, but what is this with gas, a random girl Ryan(?) seems to be singing to, random dancing people, blah. It makes no sense, it drags, and never gets better.

School Moment: Also in Japanese. Any moment where Mr. Hall is being stupid, which comes in various shades! We have bragging, lecturing over something trivial and stupid, bragging about someone else over something trivial and stupid, his constant talking (both in Japanese and in English! :D), being stubborn (lots in stock!), cutting Japanese Final Project groups down to 5 people, deciding on that stupid scoring system, and many, MANY more! Those are even worse than getting frustrated in Calc, being bored out of my mind in Physics, or being picked apart in English. I would say when my money got stolen, but I didn't find out till I was at home, so that doesn't really count as a school moment. Still, those fuckers.

Period of Time: It would have to be between The Insane Period and The Age of Sensitivity. I think it would have to be The Age of Sensitivity, cuz that actually inflicted some.. pain. ^_^;

Website: MYSPACE! Burrrnn.

And so, friends, I bid you a Happy New Year. Be sure to comment. >=[